had a day that you wish you could do over?
Or at least do over part of the day?
I wish I could have a do over on part of my day yesterday.
A do over on the Sabbath?? What could be so bad??
Let me write it out for you.
I had an early morning meeting. I got up and got ready, a little slow, I was tired. I had had a crazy week.
Todd had been in India since the Friday before and had just gotten home late Saturday night. That in and of itself could explain the crazy week.
The kids had numerous games, concerts, activities. I had missed ALL of Brandon's baseball games~due to other kids activities.
I got a phone call in the early part of the week with news that was not great and something I didn't want to hear.
I had all kinds of plans to get so many things done.
didn't happen.
Then I think the straw that broke the camel's back was on Saturday Brandon's game was to be at 3 in the afternoon. I took him over at 2:15 because they need to be there early to warm up. We get there and there is not a Ranger in the place. Long story short, the game had been moved to 9 am and I had no idea. I wasn't at the last game to hear the time of the next game and we totally missed it. Brandon was in tears and thought I was blaming him for not telling me and he didn't realize there was a time change and for some odd reason, he didn't say anything to me Sat. morning.
So, I was having to hurry to my meeting. I was fine, but a little rushed, and very tired(and I don't do great when I am overly tired).
Got to my meeting, before it started and got there early enough to get the Relief Society room set up.
Went in to the meeting, which at this particular one is mostly men, and yesterday 3 women.
Got started, all is good.
Bishop starts talking, gets a bit emotional and I get a bit teary. If anyone knows me very well at all, you know I cry when anyone else does!
We continue on with the meeting and I have stopped the teary eyes.
Then he did something that he has never done in a meeting that I have been in and he says,
"So how are each of you doing??"
That was not the question to ask me yesterday.
I lost it. I was just crying my eyes out.
It was terrible.
I felt this past week that I had done a bad job of being the best I can be.
I didn't do well with family prayer, there were NO scriptures read, the house wasn't(still isn't) in the best shape, I had missed all of Brandon's games and then he missed one too. I was a crazy lady most of the week trying to keep up with the kids and by yesterday it showed.
I felt like I had failed in so many ways. Yet, I know I really didn't.
I didn't say a thing in my meeting. Until someone specifically asked me how I was doing and if I had something I wanted to share.
Unfortunately, I can't hide my crying. My face gets red, my lip swells, my eyes get red. It is ugly!
I said I didn't want to share because I was already crying and he asked if I was sure. Well, he asked for it.
I let it out.
All the things I stated above I shared with a group of at least 6 men and one other woman(our pres. had left to get her kids by this point, lucky her)
I think the men in the room thought I had lost my mind.
Todd is somewhat used to my crying episodes.
Other men, not so much. But they asked.
Terrible I tell you, terrible.
Then, after the meeting, I went in to the bathroom to try to clean myself up and took one look in the mirror and I was done for.
I could not stop crying. I looked so terrible.
and I couldn't stop crying. I am not quite sure what got into me, other than I was just tired and it got the best of me.
I went home. I went home to take Motrin for my headache and to fix my face. Then, I went back. I thought I was doing fine, but I walked in and saw Todd and he asked me what was going on and it started all over again. I had yet to have a chance to fill him in, so we went outside so I could give him an earful. Poor Todd. The poor man has to deal with my emotions and often it is not pretty.
Anyway, I could not seem to stop the tears.
I was supposed to conduct in Relief Society and I just couldn't do it.
I told Todd I was going back home and asked him to tell my RS Pres. that i wasn't going to be there and give her the conducting sheet I had started to get ready. He did, and I left.
I still am not exactly sure I have answers for my episode yesterday, but I sure do wish I could do it all over. I am sure the men in that meeting will be scarred for life!
That is when I wish for do~overs!!
The rest of the Sabbath was nice.
We went to a baptism of a friend and that was a good time!
I am still tired today and a wee bit on the emotional edge, but for the most part I am doing much better and know I will recover.
As for the men in that meeting, I am not so sure!
1. air conditioning
2. Todd being back home to help run kids around
3. baptisms
and I know the picture is missing from the top of my blog, I was wanting to change it and deleted the one and now can't get another one to work in its place!
